Please Don't Leave Me...

Dear diary,

I woke up extra early today, it's Saturday we're going to the beach. I waited two months for this!

I gathered all my stuff, and went to wake Melissa, my older sister, up. But it seems she already woke up.  I didn't find anyone in the house!

But...but they promised to take me with them to the beach! I started to cry...

And cry...

Then my Grandma walked up behind me and told me that Melissa is sick and they are (mommy, daddy, and Melissa) at the doctors office.

A couple hours later they came back home! I asked if we were still going to the beach. But mommy said, "Melissa is a little tired, and maybe we can go next week." She bend down and kissed my forehead as a tear rolled down her cheek.

The next day, I woke up.

Melissa was still sleeping! I went to wake her up, but mommy said to let her keep sleeping.

At noon, Daddy came home from work with two big yellow envelopes in his hand...

And...he was crying...

I rushed over to Daddy as he gave mommy the envelopes, "Daddy! Why are you crying? What's going on?"

Mommy opened the note, then started crying also...

"Mommy! Daddy! What's wrong?" Mommy nor daddy replied...they just hugged me with tears all over their faces...

I didn't understand any of this, but what I know is Melissa and Mommy keep going to the doctor.

A few days later, I went to wake up Melissa. She wasn't in her bed...

But...her pillow was full of hair... Did she cut her hair with a pair of scissors...?

There was hair all over her bed...and on the floor. Melissa was in the bathroom vomiting...!

Things in house really changed... I may not understand how or why. But I knew it wasn't in a good way... Every night, I would go to bed and pray

"Dear God, Please make things good again... I won't ask to go to the beach anymore..."

As days passed things got weirder. Melissa was always taking medicine and wearing this ugly hat.

Then one day, they were packing up Melissa's stuff... "Mommy, where is Melissa going...?"

"She's going to be away for a few days honey..."

"She's coming back, right?"

"Let's...hope so..." Mommy said as a tear rolled down her cheek.

That night...when Melissa was leaving she hugged me so tight. "Take care of yourself! You're a big girl!" Melissa said as tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Okay, but why are you crying?"

"Because I'm going to miss you. Remember Jenna I'll always love you. You'll always be in my heart no matter what!" I gave Melissa a small smile. She kissed me goodbye...as tears covered her face.

Why did she tell me that? I know she loves me... Why must she leave again... I don't want her to go...

Mommy and Daddy left with Melissa and I stayed with Grandma.

A few days passed, Mommy and Daddy came back...

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...alone...

"Listen, sweetie, Melissa is gone on a trip..." Mommy said as tears rolled down her cheeks.

"Yeah I know, when is she coming back? I'm starting to miss her." Mommy started crying even more after I had said that.

"What's wrong mommy?" I was confused...

"This time...Melissa's trip is taking her a long time...she...won't be back..." Daddy told me with tears.

"NO Daddy! NO! Melissa loves me! She'd never go! No! No! No," Tears started to well up in my eyes. "NO! Melissa won't ever leave!"

"Someday you'll grow up and understand why she had to leave..." Mommy said while she attempted a wobbly smile, tears running down her cheeks and falling to the floor.

Even though the don't know why Melissa left...

I somehow know she had to...

I love you Melissa~ you'll forever be my beloved sister... Even though I can't see you... I know you'll be here with me...looking upon me...

Maybe...just maybe...we'll meet in the future.